Finally

I woke up this morning when my hp rang. Still pretty much asleep, i quickly answered. Oh, it was from a company i interviewed with last week. A second interview, I thought. She said I was supposed to report to work on 28th this week. I was totally awake. WTH, I know nothing about it. It was already 30th. Will I still able to work? I was speechless. Luckily she said there was a miscommunation on the company side and asked to report to work on Monday at 8am. Oh, I was totally relieved to hear that.*sweats* Well, I hope it not another miscommunication..

Anyway, I was really happy and too exited to go back to sleep (it still pretty early, for me that it) On a gloomy note, TMnet "harassed" me again to remind me of the RM350 i yet to pay... Sigh~ This is too much for one morning and it not even noon yet.

Well, i still a bit worried though, nervous i think. LOL Hope all goes well from this moment on. And btw, I canceled my interview for this noon. I dunwan to waste the transport fee. :P

In Dire Need of Work

Sigh~ it been months and still i pretty much jobless. Everything seems to get worse these days. I spent most of my days in front of my PC either playing games or doing some artworks. As for the job searching, still not much i can do. I already send a lot of resumes, folios, been interviewed here and there but still no results. Not very sure what went wrong in the process >.<" Not sure what i can do now.....

Just few days back, i got visited from the former housemate demanding i pay up the deposit since almost years ago. Come on, its not entirely my problem. In my current situation i really cant even part with RM 10 let alone a few hundreds. And usually those who move out should find a new people to replace them. Why I the one who replaced ANOTHER should bear the responsiblity to find other people for them or repay their deposit? It just not fair. Sigh~ blame it to my some unwise decisions and a year back. And worse, they thought I been sleeping like a useless bum the whole time. Fuck. I did my best finding a job and what can I do if I'm not hired.
Anyway, i promised i pay up a hundred first in October. Just pray I got a job then.

Sigh~ at times I wondered where i went wrong. So down these days... So lonely. T.T

Optimistic and Hopeful

Sigh~ just got back from an interview from PJ. And the result? Well, not that good I think. Maybe i was either too honest or lack of confidence bout myself. still it was a rather intimating 2 on 1 interview. Quite different from the same 2 on 1 last Monday. Nonetheless, I pretty confidence on what they'll see in my portfolio cds i gave them. And now hoping for second interview.

Speaking of the last interview on Monday, the atmosphere was more friendly and warm. I was interviewed as a graphic designer and i think made a good impression. Still if i get a job, i have another headache to attend to- the transport or maybe accomodation... Kepong is a way too far from where i live now. Better think of plan in case i got the job *sigh*

Another suprising development on my job searching was on the job which i quited waiting for. Guess what, the boss gave a call another day and asked to email a redesigned namecard of hers to jugde whether i got what it takes. Heck, she should have asked for it a month ago.. *sweats* Anyway, i did what she asked and hope for a good news.

Now, all I have to do is pray and be optimistic. My luck may just change for good.

Moving On

There.. i just email the last of the few resume for today. Have to spent some time picking the rite job on JobDB *sweats* I still not really confidence bout myself since i been unemployed for sometime.

Anyway, for those who followed my blog (whom i think i can count on 1 hand) was to think i started to work since last week. Well, I have to admit i being naive on thinking that i'be employed by the boss after waiting for over a month or so... >.<"
Hey, the boss did said she will hire me... or so i thought. And today, after last week which she promise to call which she didnt.. i thought wat the heck, i'm tired of waiting for nothing and start to move on to find a new job.

A friend (thanks, u know who u r)of mine said i have two weakness, lack of confidence and like to wait for things to happen which i think is true esspecially the later >.<" Well, i hope this time i'll will make things happen. And make sure by the end of this month i'll get myself a job, once and for all.

Blog Thingy Again

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are quite expressive and thoughtful. You see the world in a way that others are blind to. You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it. You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you. Your near future is likely to be filled with great successes and accomplishments. You just need to figure out how to get there. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

You Should Be a Painter

You have the vision, patience, and skill to bring your unique visions to canvas. And you're even tempered enough not to cut your ear off in the process!

What Sort of Artist Should You Be?

Life Currently

Well, I still not working yet. Getting very very worried. Really tired of all this waiting game. Wonder when I will get a decent job here... *sigh*

Anyway, nowdays I spent my time playing Neverwinter Nights, trying to finish the whole game plus the expansions. Enjoy them very much... much better than those online game nowadays. Besides games, I also try to brush up my art skills- digital illustration and character designs, hoping to make my current portfolio more solid *grin* Expect to see them here soon.

And with all the hoo-haa with the recent rob and kill in Setapak, I and the rest of the community can finally rest in peace now that the culprits are caught (well, apparently...)Read it here. Still, I hope the policemen and co will not let up the security around here...

MIA and Back

Wooot...
It been a while since my last post.. Almost a month. I been away in my hometown in Johore. Thats means no net access there too T.T So I been watching singapore channel, reading newspapers and eating almost everyday.. lol. Gain some weight too i think.

Only been back to KL for few days... then go window shopping since then lol. Fed up spending the day coop up in the house.

Owh, by the way, my new job starts next month (if what my interviewer cum boss said is right). Wats my job? Graphic design and sometimes video editing.. Well, i still not sure about the details but i hope it will be ok.

Anyway got to go now.

Health Crisis

Sigh~ what luck... While everbody else caught with World Cup fever and enjoying themself, I get myself a terrible fever after watching Cars last Saturday evening. Once back home I was like, God is that you.. no seriously. I got some out of the the world dream or hallucination slipping in and out of conciousness. I remembered when the last time i got a high fever like this when i was a young kid i saw biplanes shooting at my head .. lol

In the end, i slept for 24 hours straight, hardly eat anything, having constant headache, my limbs became numb till hardly function and need to endure this for 3 days.

Anyway, thanks god for my brothers for helping me to endure this hellish moments. And this make me realised i really need to maintain my own well being.. Next time i may not so lucky..

Welcome To Wherever You Are

If you been looking at my Friendster profile or been listening to the radio or a fan of Bon Jovi, you probably heard tis song before. Yeap.. tis song, Welcome To Wherever You Are is from his new album, Have A Nice Day.

Well, actually when i first heard or listen to it during my working days on my previous job, i was kinda moved by the song. Maybe because it was what i like to heard during tis period of my life.. Well, the song do have some encouraging words which kinda fit into me.

Maybe we're all different
But we're still the same
We all got the blood of Eden running to our veins
I know sometimes it's hard for you to see
You caught between just who you are and who you want to be

If you feel alone and lost and need a friend
Remember every new beginning is some beginning's end

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here right now you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome to wherever you are

When everybody's in and you're left out
And you feel drowning in a shadow of the dawn
Everyone's a miracle in their own way
Just listen to yourself not what other people say

When it seems you're lost alone and feeling down
Remember everybody's different, just take a look around

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here right now you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Be who you want to be, be who you are
Everyone's a hero, everyone's a star

When you want to give up and your heart's about to break
Remember that you're perfect, God's make no mistakes

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here right now you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far (I say welcome)
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far (welcome)

When listening to the song, I dun feel bad about myself anymore. Thinking back, i always been an optimistic kinda guy.... only some recent events begun to leave doubts on myself and my life. And these days i begen to wonder whether it is a mistake to quit my previous job... :(

Anyway, the choice is made. It's better to look forward than to dwell in the past. If only i have more encouragement.......

Another Venture Into The Unknown

Aih.. another interview another far end place i need to go. Still, i hafta go... need a job anyway. Well, it was yesterday when i, again brave myself into the uncharted place... well, in the 2002 Klang Valley map book anyway which i pointlessly refered to =.="

After some research into the place the day before, I started at Kelana Jaya station which i tot it was the nearest to my destination, the newly developed town Damansara Perdana. Thinking the place was a fair distance away from One Utama, i naively went there via the feeder bus. Upon arriving the shopping complex, I kinda stumbled onto some copies of the new 2006 edition of Klang Valley map book. Shit. I was dead wrong * panicky* The town is totally on another side of place.. pratically impossible to walk to unless u got wings to fly across some busy highways.

As time ran out for my interview time.. i guessed i need to catch a taxi again this time... >.<" 5 minutes and RM4 later, I finally arrived in this totaly still in development town... i can see some contructions projects going on around. Still the place is developed enough with shops, offices and eateries opened up and running for some time...
After some minor confusion (trouble finding the road *sweats*) I finally found my place of interview.. Yeah.

Well, the interview was kinda ok and abit less tense than the previous one. The interviewer ( so sorry, not good at remembering names) who oso one of the owner of this premise, was kinda friendly and open. Anyway, I rather suprised... this animation house, Beam Animation (well, i was interviewed for an animator post) is in progress on an 3D animation series stated to release locally and in China some time soon. From what i seen, this animation is better than what i expected locally produced. Unfortunally i not sure i can give the details here.. *winks*

Sure enough I was exicted at the prospect of working with them. But there a problem or 2... transport (from wat i know, tis place was unaccessible by any public transport other than taxi)and they use Maya ( I only learned Lightwave). Well, the former is the bigger problem as i can learn new things.... Well, only if they decide to employ me.

Anyway, after the interview, it started to rain, totally forbid my checking around the place.. sigh~ Only after some time, i manage to get myself a taxi back to One Utama again to hang around on tis rainly day.

Ah.. another day passed by again unemployed.

Into The Unknown Territory

Huh~ what a day.... Just came back from an interview this morning. Finally had lunch too just now.. almost staving to death a couple of hours ago.. lol

Just like the interview at Gempakstarz a week back (huh, still no answer *sigh*) this one was also a little brief. Spent around half hour or so at De Touche (an post production company) where just like last time, spending most of the time filling up employee application forms. Anyway the interview took me to somewhere unfamiliar in PJ, that is Damansara KIM or SS20 there.

I took the LRT to Taman Bahagia station, since it is the nearest. Once there, I try to find out whether it is along the feeder bus' route. Alas, not at all. The nearest is across the DPH in Damansara Utama *sweats* Well, no choice then. Gonna took a cab first... Ah, my pocket burned.. The interview was ok but i was kinda nervous and all. Maybe it was the atmosphere- the interior is kinda sleek and modern, make me feel kinda tense. Sigh, i need to get out more....

After the interview, I went search around the place for a bus route to LRT. I went across the DPH (thanks the town management for the overbridge) towards Damansara Utama.. Hmm, not as far as I think it would be. Well, once there, i having trouble finding the right bus stop which the feeder buses will stop(street wise, i'm a total noob). I did a lot of pointness waiting, walking around, taxi waving (which, hilariously, one of them not sure where the station is since he just on the road for two days only *sweats*) and aimlessly checking out the place. Hours later and after totally walk around SS21 , I had it and just took a taxi.

Before boarding, i took note of the feeder bus' route, just in case i going back for an second interview. Anyway, I think a have a good rest before dinner and do hope i can get a decent job by mid June.

To the interviewer (Ms Jennie was it?) who mentioned she did read my blog, if you see this again, thanks for the interview and hope we got a chance to work together.

Financial Sackles

There... as of today i quit my job as video retail sales assistant, looking for a better job worth of my talents. Come to think of it none of those jobs which i worked really need this talent of mine.. or am i just been picky...

Anyway, this past half a year, financially, the worst of the 24 years of my life. Jobless for a few months, with bills and such kept piling up and even hardly can pay the house rental all those months. I even had have to borrow money from my working brother to pay the bills of my half and for my everyday use ( food and such) .

Even worst I feel like I been working to pay off those piled up bills and my bro's money. Well, all those due to some unwise decisions i made the since the end of last year. Now end up owning a lot of people's money *cry* Streamyx bill, rental, electric and water bill, ex housemate deposit.... i going crazy here @.@

Oh what the heck, better go solve it or die trying.

A Typical Day in May

Uh... the alarm rang. I opened my eyes and look at the time- 8.30am. Ah.. wished i can sleep a little more, having a nice dream just now. Another working morning .. why it is not noon today....

I prepared myself, have a quick bite and hit the road by 9 am, heading to a supermarket at the other side of the area. And 1/2 hour later... i opened up the Speedy store's shutters and get everything ready for the day... Aih, my other co-worker was late again.. hoped he arrive soon. Sigh, need to do daily clean wiping the videos again..

1.30 pm. Wait almost forever for the time. Almost bored to death... not much to do anyway. Just stand and watch the customers which were hardly any at the time. As soon as my 2nd co-worker arrived, i off to lunch. Finally. Better quickly buy something to read while eat.. i only got 40 minutes.

Try to help around when new stocks arrived, putting in security sensors, repacked and such.. better than nothing to do. Sigh, not much help i can do, my co-workers can get the job done much faster. My supervisor rather have me to watch for customers so nothing get stolen. Damn, felt sleepy already...

Another break on 5pm and there i went for a quick bite while read in the nearby food court. By then the number of customers have increased. Uh, a bunch of kids just came in.. better watch them carefully- they can be rather quick in the hand. Some even worst, bringing ice creams and let them drips on the VCDs.. Argh, gonna clean those later.

Night time. I make myself useful managing the counter. Everything is computerized- scan it, type in the cash recieved, and gave back the balance accordingly. Kaching! Uh.. another credit card payment for a little stuffs there... Buy more la uncle.. heh.

Yeah, 10.15 pm.. better get ready to close the shop. Did a quick DVDs stock counting, putting away those ad-board cut outs and setting out the shutter doors steel beams. 15 minutes later, everything closed and shut. Time to head home. But before that, have a late dinner at a nearby mamak.. Sigh, no friends to accompany me tonight.

Have a bath, read a bit and depend on the shift tomorrow, watch a movie. Ah, good. Noon time tomorrow- digital draw a bit in the pc, heh. Need to brush up my skills there.

2.24 am. Set the alarm and turned off the lights. And hoped to continue the previous dream :D

What Age Do I Act?

Found a little something interesting on a friend's blog :D

You Are 22 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Back To Hometown

Hoo~ it's been awhile since the last post... working for almost 3 weeks liao. Gonna get my 1st pay the next day or the next *grin* Well, everything goes quite smoothly at work and i seems to take it well hehe... learn quite a few things here and there...

Anyway.... now i took a few days off so that i can go back hometown, though i wished i can do so on Mother's day next week but i can only make it tis week. Well, might as well go back sooner... need to see my ailing grandpa and also he want to see me... Sad to see him bed ridden these days, he used to walk around the house some time ago..... *sob* Now he is the only grandparent i have and i really dunwan something to happen to him.. Hope he can get better.... the whole family clan is worrying :( Too bad i cant stay here for long... need to get back to work on Tuesday *sigh*

Wish him well.

Hectic Day Off

Yo, I finally have my 1st day off work... Yep, i finally got work liao *giggle*, thou only work since a few days ago.. heh. Now i work as a sales assistant of a video retail store (original products one) at a nearby shopping complex (no transportion fees *grin*)

Ya, it's a different line of work but wat to do.. i need money and they need a worker so thats alrite wif me. Besides it a stress-free work with minimum fuss *grin* but u need to get use to standing up for long hours >.<"

Anyway, today i spent my day on a wild goose chase- searching for a particular bank to open a new account with, since my salary is bank in straight by the company. Tis RHB bank really quite rare in my surrounded area... the first one i went had its system down after waiting forever for a bus to reach there.. Luckily they told me there another branch nearby but still i need ride two buses back to back to reach there. As they mentioned it is around Giant hypermaket there, so i search the area around it. Felt dumb- founded when i was told it is inside Giant after i asked 1 merchant there.. *slap forehead* Well, i got it made but i still have to go back there tomorrow to get the account booklet.. sigh~ There goes my day off tomorrow...

Anyway.. i hope tis job can last till the day i wan to really resign... for a better job of course. XD

Down and Out

Okie, my streamyx at at home was down about a week ago due to some unpaid bills :p and i dun tik i able to make it up and running any time soon... have to wait till i got a job to pay the bill at least =.="
So i will be out of any online socializing for quite some time T.T
Anyway until then, take care everyone and wish me luck :D

Gaia Dream Avatar Creator

I came across tis site, http://www.tektek.org/dream/dream.php during my surfing my one of my usual sites... It a kinda character stimulator genenator for an online game, Gaia Online. Little known about tis game though.. since i having so much fun making characters from tis web. And here is some of them that i manage to create :p


Trying to make a high wizard from the game Ragnarok Online. Tis is the closest I can get to my character from the game :D

An generic female assassin ninja also based on assassin character from Ragnarok Online. Cool huh :)

Well, tis is as close as i can get to Evil Arthas from Warcraft. Chouldnt find a better heargear for him though.. I also made a Naruto and Kakashi look alike as well from the website.... cute, lolz

There literally hundreds of clothings and things to mix and match on this site and believe me you can have hours of fun making cute and cool characters from this site.. Have fun.

mini post

a few hours more till dawn and still havent sleep..... dunno why, i like to stay up till tis hour :p
anyway been feeling kinda lonely these few days... seems i lack of friends to chat online and off "sob" anyway, to a better week tomorrow.. haha

Elfen Lied

Ok, another anime review. Since this anime is only 13 episodes plus an OVA, i able to finished it in almost 1 night and an afternoon. Yeah, I'm pretty free u can say that, lolz.

Anyway, Elfen Lied is based on a manga by Lynn Okamoto and was produced by VAP in 2004. The story centers on Lucy, one of the human mutants (aka homo superior lolz) called "diclonius" which have horns on their heads ( look more like cat ears than horns) All diclonii (plural) possess Vector, invisible arms that can stretch and slice human bodies like tofu and throw things at lethal speed that are lying within their "arms" length which are vary between diclonii.
Back to the story- Lucy, in her escape from the facility that locked her up, got hit in her head and fell into the sea. She then drift into care of two normal teenager, Kouta and Yuka. But Lucy's mind has reduced to the state of an infant and was named Nyuu due to the only sound she able to make then. And her captives begin to search for her due to her dangerous abilities.

Ok, before you watch tis anime, let me warn u a bit- it filled to the brim with graphic violence especially in the starting escaping scene where Lucy is killing soldiers left and right O.0 Also there are a lot of nudity ;) But the core of the story deals with the inhuman of so-called humans, acceptance, love and forgiveness with a lot of social and psychology issues thrown in. All in all, it's 1 of the best anime i seen.

And do take notice in the opening and ending sequences, they r based on the famous painting of Gustav Klimt, a great fine artist. Nice.