Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Divine Intervention? Or Irritation?

I must been so stupid... Gave up a confirmed job offer for another job which dun really exist... yet. Well, just hear me out.

Weeks ago while i was still a part time sensei, i been to an interview in Singapore for a job as a graphic designer as i mention in a post sometime ago. The interview went quite well, 'cept a bit problem with my expected salary. The highest they can offer was SG$ 1000 which i thought compared to the island's cost of living and the market price of graphic designer (i did my research)- was quite low. Anyway, i went back hometown while the interviewer who happens to be the editor had to discuss with others before confirmation. He promised contact me again the next week.

In the meantime, when my Singapore aunt heard about the news, she was wary about my choice of employer. She immediately lectured me 'bout malay people not being trustworthy and worried 'bout me being accidentally embroiled in some sort of terrorist plot (omg *sweats*). I try to make sense of things and ensure her fear was unfounded. Naturally i was quite dismay 'bout her racist claims and her being paranoid 'bout things. She either dun trust my employer or in me or both. I even got a lecture from my uncle 'bout national security and stuffs later. Talk about "kiasi" (fear of death or trouble). *sweats*

Back home across the strait, my mum brought me to a never-visit-before temple to pray and to get consultation from the deity. It seems a there a famous taoist priest there able to act as a medium for the deities. I scoffed at the idea. I never much of a religious guy and i never like doing all those putting all the joss sticks at every altar in the temple. Too troublesome for me, i guess. But still i do believe in God and for me praying is all about sincerity and nothing else in between. Short and simple.

Anyway, the taoist believe a wide range of gods and pray from all of them. That means a bunch of altars around the temple. What's new and strange for me was there was a small hut which inside lit up with only purple light. This houses the altars for the deities from the underworld. It kinda creepy putting up black coloured joss sticks in this cold (the only aircon room) purple shaded atmosphere. The consultation even took place here... and the deities whom to give consult were from hell itself. My mum explain different nights may have different deities. Some are stern and serious, and other are joyous and friendly- all in one medium. Talk about split personality. I personally witnessed two different characters in two different nights ( i been there twice last month).

It easy been sceptical about this deity from hell ( i kept thinking and referring to those shinigamis in Soul Society of Bleach fame, lol) but I do admit this guy have some sort of psychic-like ability. The advice seems logical and he advise me to take up interior design for a better financial future (like i have to money to take on) . Btw, he seems up to date to modern times and even spoke a few english words. Lol. My mum and little bro was there to be consult too. Mum was for health and finance and my bro was for safety and study- even get a bit of scolding for his disobedient... The priest/deity asked help from a fellow temple friend who was a singaporean to help me to find a better job for me. So now i have a choice.

My mum went there for a few times to get advice to set up a ancestor altar at home for better blessing. As for me, I was waiting at home for confirmation from the malay employer when it finally came. They offer me the job for SG$ 1000 (final figure) and i need to confirm myself for the job. As i was getting ready, my mum back from the temple told me to turn the job down and wait for a better job the temple friend helping to find. Even the priest/deity adviced so. As for myself too hoping for a better paying job in better enviroment and due to both family pressure and the so-called power of suggestion, i turned the job down. I even quit the tiution job. Sigh~

Now being jobless again, i not sure if i made the right choice or being stupid to believe all those things. Still, i can only hope to the sincerity of those people that are really trying to help.

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